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Year 6 Part 1
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2026-03

2026-03-14 8:53AM

• I think I made the theme colours work here too :3 not all pages tho, and the settings can't be saved yet (currently it only applies to the page you're on), but I'll figure it out maybe
  Other than that, this took a bunch of refactoring and it still could be done better ;w; and ofc it didn't work the first try because I had some extra semicolons or brackets, but I fixed it and it should work ^^
• still not feeling well but I'm trying not to think about it ;w;

2026-03-13 1:41AM

• y'know what I didn't bring when I moved the website here? the webpage with frames! I had plans to also have one that'd play music ;w; currently I don't really know how to make it possible, but I'll find a way :3 because I really don't wanna deal with mp3s or audio or video or anything like that on my webpages, I'd kinda have to use something else. I could use mp3s hosted elsewhere, but there's way too many of them,,, instead I think I'll make a youtube playlist and use that instead, I don't know what else at this time. we'll have to see where would I even link to the frame webpage again,,, and then confusion from it again ;w;
• I forgot to make the theme colours again aaaaaaaa

2026-03-10 3:12AM

• there's too many things happening and I'm pretty tired of it all tbh, but let's not worry about that. from what I've noticed, I've not done much from what I had planned, which is not really that surprising, but I would've liked to do at least something ;w; well whatever, I could at least prepare the theme colour things so I can then use in the variables or whatever, we'll see ^^
• Other than that, not much I think,,, I need to do what I was planning to ;w; sorry there's still no way to ask me things or a guestbook or anything like that. as I previously mentioned, I kinda don't wanna deal with user data anymore, and I do not wanna be the one responsible for it, so! instead of me hosting those things, I'll just link to a platform that does it, and that should work well, hopefully won't randomly shutdown like the previous ones that did so too,,, you see, that's another problem; many of the platforms I'd use to host questions and answers are not available anymore, and I don't really know what's there and what to use ;w; anyway, I'll figure out something, and also sorry I didn't update the games webpage yet again; I'll see when I'm able to do that, or at least when I can play something new(!), that happens very rarely to me ;w; due to my backlog being hundreds of games long, many of them being from 2010s and before (I started wishlisting during the late 2010s and early 2020s, nothing from after that point) which makes me quite unlikely to ever play anything from recent years, not that I'd like to, but y'know just saying. and oh right, the games webpage, I remember I've not actually played anything else other than the ones I wrote there, mostly replayed some of them on stream, and that's about it ;w; kinda need suggestions for what to play, but we'll get there; something I know about peeps is that too much choice can lead to choosing nothing, so instead of listing every single game for the platforms I play on, I'd choose 4~6 random ones and make a poll of them to choose which one is played next, and so on. the one chosen gets played and taken off the poll, and nothing else changes about the poll, until there's one game left, in which case there's no poll and that's the next game played, then there's another 4~6 random ones and make a poll of them to choose which one is played next, and so on. maybe seeing it in action would make more sense but still
• anyway, I wish I could do more, I'm sorry ;w; I'll try to check on sk, kinda miss them,,,

2026-03-06 2:54AM

• randomly remembered I need to fix some links in many webpages ;w; all the ones specifically pointing to the old homepage, the webpage and not the index. anyway, there's like many of them, also on my other websites, but I'll try to make it work somehow ^^ first I should fix this set of webpages, the diary ones, and then I'll do the others, hopefully
• I should also relearn how I made the colour themes work and how to save them properly across my websites; I asked the ai how to do it and it suggested some things, one that I'll be able to do is a settings webpage to sync things and also change font size(?) and make it so the webpages can be as wide as possible, just like wikipedia used to be :3
• still worried but I try not to think about it,,, it's better if I don't know, and I do not want to know

2026-03-04 7:54PM

• I think I did that ^^ now I randomly remembered that I kinda forgot about some old homepage showcase and the news style design thing,,, I have to add more to them again ;w;
  I was supposed to add to the news style thing shortly after I changed it here, because now I have no idea how I made it work lol, but whatever
• other than that, I'm not feeling quite well and I'm getting kinda worried; I'm so tired, why do I even bother,,, and sorry if you managed to fill in some form from sk some time ago, I don't think they ever checked it again after that,,, so,,, I'll have to find another way to contact us at ;w; hopefully not something that'll require too much effort on our part lol
  so I'm not gonna do the website builder thing, but instead the question asking website that I didn't wanna do but would've preferred to do my own thing,,, currently icba to do my own thing anymore, I'll still copypaste the questions and answers into my archive with my own styling, but that's about it, I won't do anything extra. And I really do not want to manage user data ever ^^
  about sk, I've not seen them recently and that also makes me kinda worried, but I hope they'll be back again; they take some time off randomly and do whatever they want, so it's not too unusual of them, but everytime that happens it makes me worried (because they just disappear without telling anyone), so y'know

2026-03-02 1:18AM

• I don't remember what I did here this time, but anyway, I wanna update some repos with more things ^^
• Other than that, I still hope things get better ;w;
• and I hope I can remember what else I had to get done,,,

2026-02

2026-02-21 4:19PM

• I think it rained for some days instead, and I can't remember anything that I wanted to do lol. could've predicted that's what was gonna happen
• anyway, I really don't know what to do,,, I hope things are gonna get better soon because I don't like the way things are going ;w;

2026-02-16 2:21AM

• somehow I've done what I wanted to do in the past days without the todo list or whatever; let's see if in these days I'll remember what other things I wanted to get done :3
• and yea, whenever someone tells me to go sleep, my mind takes it in a wrong way, as if that'll be the last time they see me or something, hopefully not
  I still don't feel so well tho

2026-02-15 1:20PM

• it seems I entered into depression space again, and I'm not sure if it's my lack of sleep that's causing it or whatever but yea, I don't feel so well at this time. I really don't like the state of things, tbh w/ u
• I'll take a break from things, and maybe come back as if nothing happened
  and also maybe try to sort through things if possible? maybe make that silly webpage that links to everything because I kinda need it too ;w;
• sk kinda forgot to add their own thoughts for the games I played, and I also kinda forgot to ask them to do it (weren't they supposed to do it on their own? anyway). we'll see if we can just edit the webpage and add them to it
• other than that, not really sure, I don't feel well, should go to sleep and I hope I can wake up. gonna be honest, one of my silly fears is that one time I'll go to sleep and that's the last thing I know; obviously that's kinda unlikely to happen, but you tell that to my mind that likes to make things up, and some other topics that it's better if I won't get into

2026-02-14 12:49AM

• some computer part is not doing well and causes videos to flash green and squares to appear on the screen sometimes, that one locks up everything and I need to restart from the button (usually I wanna avoid that), so,,, y'know how everything is expensive nowadays, I'm really not gonna get it fixed anytime soon,,,
  _BUT_ it might be just because something is not seated properly, hopefully. I remember I dusted things off some months ago, and I might have pushed some things in the process, I don't know, anyway; I have the old laptop that I'm currently writing this on, but I kinda don't want for it to be my main again ;w; it takes a bit (very) longer to do things and by the time it's done I could do more than 2 coffees (well, not really, but still). whatever, I hope it's something simple that can be fixed, because I don't wanna replace the CPU or MB, and I really do not want to get any new GPU and RAM any time soon lol; even the small 4GB stick I got for this laptop got expensive, not significantly, but enough for me to notice the number increased. and anyway, the stick is not 5 or 4, it had to be 3L whatever that is, and it had to be specifically smaller than what I'm used to; good thing I disassembled the thing and looked, or else I wouldn't know where to stick it in
• and well, I don't know where to say this but I kinda need help with things ;w; I need help with many things,,, don't even know where to begin,,, if anyone is willing to tell me things, please (please!) contact me somehow ;w; I assume that you reading this know how to contact me somehow, maybe; if not, I really have to make the webpage that links to pretty much everything,,, could also work as a 'sitemap'? kinda. the problem is that I don't really have any structure on my websites, everything is all over the place and you can't easily find your way around,,, maybe that's why peeps just generate the websites and use like a visual interface to write, instead of just throw the files wherever (I'm still not gonna generate the websites, and I'd much rather prefer writing the HTML/CSS/JS all by myself thanks). oh and also, by not generating the website I may also save bandwidth because there's not a whole bunch of elements within elements and there's pretty much no extra CSS and JS or whatever. basically the webpages only contain what I want them to contain, so the file sizes are smaller, so there's way less to transfer. I've not looked too deep into it, but currently, at the time of this writing, the webpage that contains the diary entries for these few months was only 70kB (but only 40kB transferred, as compressed I assume?), and the file itself was 42kB. keep in mind these are double-digit **kilo**bytes, how often do you see something like that on the web nowadays? anyway, some of my webpages with a lot of images may go up to 1MB, but still, that's to be expected, they do contain lots of different images
• well then, not sure how long I'm gonna write these posts but hopefully long enough ^^ 'lots of images' reminded me, soon I'll have to write some sort of a story or something for my characters, but I won't expect anyone to read it or anything, and I also have to draw them again and specify some details clearly (and what I do NOT want them to be shown with, it's still my character after all :3 tbh I won't do anything if you draw my character(s) in a way that I don't agree with, just don't show them to me please ^^ ) because I feel like some things are not specific enough and I don't wish to be left to any interpretation (similar to ToS, you gotta specify everything in every way). let's see which folder I'll throw those webpages into after I write them ;w; and ohh right, I'll have to also write in non-english and not really put them on this website,,, well then, I'll take example what others do and where they put the files,,, and they also have to be easily accessible somehow,,, ah whatever, we'll see how it is
• Gonna (re)learn how I made the colour themes before and gonna learn how to save them across webpages; I have some ideas for how to, and ai gave me an idea to also use iFrames. first I'll learn how it works on my own and see if ai can fix my syntax; I hope I'll have colour themes on these webpages and a few other places, but again I'll have to include that Javascript everywhere ;w; it seems I did need to load some Javascript after all,,,

2026-02-13 6:57AM

• I'm not really sure if I wanna do daily updates again like I used to but whatever
  I fixed some bash scripts and I'll have to make or remake the webpage for them, wherever I put it someday ;w;
• Anyway, I also did some of sourcing where I got the tiny images from, but I'll have to move the webpage somewhere else or idk
  I might just have a webpage that links to everything, everywhere. It's possible many of the webpages are only useful to me, and to you they're not useful at all; or some that I wrote some time ago and are not so useful for me because I know them, but may be useful to you instead. I'll try to do something like that somehow. and yes I could link to it from the homepage as 'several extra things' maybe, I don't know yet (I do kinda need to change the homepage again,,, oh boi, for someone that doesn't like change I sure change my homepage many times lol. tbh I think I kinda got it to be similar to how my very first homepage was, basically just some links with no description or anything. but simply the links would be too tiny to click, so I made them look like buttons)
• Other than that,,, I'll have to update the webpage for what games I played, to include what I wanna play, because I seem to have the same problem like what anime I wanna watch, because whenever I try to look at the list I get distracted and never do it. Would just have to start with a few and go from there
• Anyway, the tiny buttons I added work, but don't display properly at less than 360px wide screens, and,,, does anyone use anything like that anymore? How is a phone screen's width even calculated, seeing that web browsers "zoom in" the fonts by default, making it "smaller" than it is, and "one pixel" is actually 10 of them. well I don't know, and I don't really care tbh w/ u. idrc about the mobile web anymore, nothing about phones seem fun to me nowadays, it's so dum, I used to like it, but now there's way too much unnecessary things and whatever, I'm sick of it. and I used to have so many games on the phone, like every week or so I'd go on the android marketplace (remember that?) and there was always something fun to get, and sometimes I'd get far into the "related apps" and find some pretty interesting games and such; not really nowadays with all the nonsense that everything has. I just wanted something that works, not have a bunch of flashing colours and everything blinding. well, whatever, I haven't liked games from there for,,, quite a number of years, I think I stopped visiting far before it got so much worse, and I didn't think to save the `apk`s in time (back when I could just browse the folder with a file manager without `root`, now I don't even know if you can), but even then they wouldn't work because of compatibility or whatever. things used to be fun ;w; now it's nothing but worry and sadness, things I wanna get away from; I don't wanna worry about being unstable and I don't wanna have to deal with sadness yet again
  but yea, zooming,,, well, anything other than 100% with the font size I have by default is not my problem :3 if anything breaks, that's on you
• one day I wanted to archive some music and videos _just in case_, might as well try to make a plan for _what to archive_ at least, because yea, many of the videos I used to see are not anywhere I searched
• I'll see if I have something to talk about tomorrow, if not, see you another time ^^

2026-02-12 8:36AM

• y'know I said I'd add the text for talking about the games I played; it seems I added it after all, I didn't expect to do it this quick but I'm not complaining. Still have to write some webpage for the anime I wanna watch, but maybe another day
• And apparently I forgot to publish the previous entry,,, I think I wanted to test if it works as expected, but then I went to take a nap and never tested it,,, whatever, I'm sure it works :3
• anyway, I can see the appeal in ai and I may be using it more from now on; is what I would say if I was actually gonna use it more, but I'm not gonna do that, don't worry about it ^^ I'd write all code by myself (or adapt snippets that I find that can do what I need), and let it do some review for what can be done better or how to fix it; tbh I still need to start with writing the code in my way, so it knows what I wanna do. trying to 'code' things without writing the code doesn't seem easy imo, and if you don't code the thing yourself, you'll be finding your API keys in places they shouldn't be. I'm not saying to stop letting it do all the code for you (it's funny to see API keys meant to be private shown publicly), but still, you kinda need to know your way around it, especially if you're making something that's intended to be interacting with a server or whatever, something not local to your machine. and please, please double-check before you let ai interact with or manipulate your files in anyway
  Don't know where I was going with this but yea; funnily enough, I did learn some things by using ai with code, and I feel like that's something it's good at; or at least not large codebases, mostly small parts of it to keep it simple
• anyway (again), let's see what else needs to be done

(2026-02-11 9:33AM)

• so I added some tiny buttons for current entry, previous, and next, for these things, and it's something I wanted to do for so long but could never get it to work properly, especially not with duplicate dates, but now it works :3
• and yes I used ai again, but tbh the way I was doing it was wrong anyway, I was setting the value but also changing it when I shouldn't be, so the comparison didn't work out; whatever, now it works better. I did rewrite most of the code but at least I understand how it works :3
• For some reason I haven't done the other things I was thinking about, and I don't really know why ;w; later today I should try that again

2026-02-11 1:06AM

• been slowly trying to update some webpages,,, the one for the games I played, the one with many external Links, and one for hopefully sourcing where I got some of the images I've been using from. I think I have the text for talking about the games I played, but I need to properly put it into the webpage, and that may take a bit but we'll get there
• Other than that, at the moment I'm not sure, I may also need to update the homepage yet again ;w;

2026-02-09 05:54PM

• For some reason the javascript worked on Firefox but didn't work on Chrome; it seems the way I write dates is not understood by that web browser Date thing, so I had to change the date in script for a different result; this one should work now ('should' is the keyword; if it doesn't work, I'll do it differently again). I'll admit to having used ai for it, but I understand what the code means and I could've written it myself if I knew better. the code is still written by myself, but dealing with timestamps and converting them to 'days since' was a bit beyond me. I was trying to compare between timestamps (or unix timestamp, basically a long number), but it showed me I could make it so the timestamps could be written as 'days since' and compare a number of days instead. Something similar is delta time I think, but again it was something a bit beyond me but now everything makes sense ;w;
• alright, the full extent to what I used ai for was simply asking it what to do to get '14 days ago', 'a month ago', 'more than a year ago' in javascript, because I don't know how to explain myself; then it gave me some snippets of code that I adapted into my code, and it works ^^ most I needed was a bit of regex, converting into 'days since', and the if/else things that I wasn't sure about. I'll still continue to write the code myself like before
• anyway, that reminds me, I have some bash scripts I wanna make better, load a value in a variable and use that instead of hardcoding the thing in the script and having to rewrite it everytime; maybe I'll share some after I fix them somehow

2026-02-09 12:49AM

• I remembered about some old javascript I wrote that made it work like that,,, somehow,,, but I don't remember _how_ I made it work lol, so I remade it and it should work here too. while writing the thing I also changed some things; obviously, I added the "NEW" text, but I also added the mascot thing because why not, I thought the text looked a bit empty so I added that because I could :3 And I also changed the width of some borders, so it kinda looks a bit different; it reminds me I need to update that old webpage I made to showcase the style changes of the Diary webpages (it did change quite a bit), but I also need to remember what everything from there even means ;w; One of the problems I have is that I write scripts but then I forget how I wrote them to do what they do, and even if it's obvious at the time, later on it may not be, and tbh I never think I might want to add anything to the scripts, and if I wanna reuse them I'll figure out how I wrote them (but it almost never happens like that lol, I get so confused, especially by the various kinds of things in the CSS of this webpage; I wanna rewrite it but at the same time I wanna keep everything as is, I don't even know what I wanna do)
  Later I should figure out what I did for the colour themes, and make them work here and some other places too (and maybe have a webpage specifically for the settings? I had some settings I wanted to make configurable, but that kinda means I need to include the javascript in every webpage, and it's still not really gonna work everywhere because I have like 3 different websites and the settings saved through cookies(?) are not gonna work cross-domain (obviously!). I don't feel like trying to figure out how _that_ 's gonna work, so whatever, I might just have 2 setting webpages. And even then, I'd need to include the javascript in every webpage, which I'm not gonna do lol; I should've done that long ago if I was gonna do this, but ah well it doesn't really matter anyway
• Also, something I randomly remembered, if possible please ask me about any projects or anything I said that I'd do; I may have forgotten things and I need to be reminded of them ;w;

2026-02-06 12:17AM

• Experimented a bit with the colours on the diary and it seems the text is easier to read on blue instead of purple?? huh, I'm surprised
  Anyway, I'll have to figure out the code used in Web Experiments for the color theme thing and make it work here too, and also be able to save it without making use of cookies (is it possible? I might have known but have since forgotten, lol). I don't really wanna change the default colours, but I'll give you the choice to change them to another colour theme at least :3
• Anyway, the webpages I talked about, not really any progress (nothing at all currently, I'm still thinking about them)
• oh and also, some time ago I tried to make something that would add a tiny red "NEW!!" if something I wrote is less than 2 weeks ago, and change it to yellow until it's 1 month ago (after that it won't add anything), and thankfully, due to the way I have consistently written the dates across these years, it should be pretty easy to parse and make it work,,, somehow,,, well, there's quite some problems with the approach I wanted to take:
  so, the thing is made up out of `dl`, `dt`, `dd` (and `ul`, `li` inside `dd`, but that's not important). `dl` is the whole thing, `dt` is where I write the date, and `dd` is the text. I wanted to use `:before` or `:after` from `dt` and put it somewhere in the corner; those 2 are already used to make the silly symbols around the date (could I use 2 `background-image`s instead? maybe, but I'd prefer I use text wherever possible, and minimize the usage of images and javascript as much as possible; that said, the diary webpages somehow contain absolutely no JS, or at least until I write the thing to show the "NEW!!" text, but even then it won't add much or anything at all), and so I thought I'd use `:before` or `:after` from `dd` instead, seeing that I've not used them for anything yet. also I thought manually adding `class` to them would be a problem, but somehow I forgot I wanna do this automatically, so that's not a problem. sadly this thing will 'stop working' if I also stop updating the website itself, so if you wanna see it in action you might have to either change the system clock or download the webpage and change the dates (or figure out where to get the js from and make it work yourself :3 )
• but yea, somehow, doing _all of that_ is easier than writing some webpage about what games I played or what I wanna watch,,, I really don't understand myself lol. Not to mention _all of that_ requires some math knowledge and converting it to unix seconds or something. funny thing about JS that I just remembered is that it'll automatically convert some wrong dates into proper ones; so for example if you wrote January 40, it'll take the amount of extra days from the month you gave it and add it to the next one. I experienced this myself when I wrote a webpage to show 100 days for some yt thing that sk was doing (or at least it worked on Chrome because it doesn't seem to work on Firefox), but anyway, I'm not gonna make use of any undefined or unpredictable behaviour, I'll just parse the date text as a date and work my way around; I'll also have to load it as UTC+0 because I don't feel like messing with timezones again, and besides, for such a tiny thing it doesn't matter, and who's gonna notice that it's not really exactly '2 weeks ago' but it may be some hours off
  Anyway, yea, it doesn't matter; I thought about using some kind of JS library for this but it might not be necessary. Unrelated, I'll have to learn how to save the state of the theme colour thing somewhere and see how to load it, and yea not use cookies (or at least use cookies as fallback? don't know yet)
  but yes, somehow doing all that is gonna be easier, lol

2026-02-06 7:18PM

• Not the same keyboard as last time but whatever
  some ideas I randomly had is to make yet another webpage for the games I played but this time I should actually make it and continue what I started ;w; Other than that one, I should also make a webpage for the anime I wanna watch, because whenever I think about it I never have a list or anything to choose from, then I give up and do something else. It also doesn't help that my time is gonna be even more limited than it already is, but I will try not to think about it
• but anyway, I hope things go well; the less I know, the less I worry about, y'know. I don't feel so well recently, I don't wanna feel even worse, and whatever I see makes me feel pretty bad. I also don't quite like the seemingly increased amount of noises made around me. and I also don't like having anxiety and whatever other nonsense I suffer from. wish it was better but what can I do
• Something else to mention, I forgot about the place to ask me questions again, I'm sorry ;w; I don't think I wanna make a separate webpage for the questions, I'll just add them to the webpage itself (kinda like a guestbook), but maybe the separate webpage can work as a 'backup' for when the main one has too many questions there (or maybe the separate webpage contains everything in some order, but the main one is the questions as I get them; we'll see). I kinda wanna do this because I can't seem to accept emails or DMs or anything anymore ;w; which kinda goes against my previous wishes where I would welcome any messages, but whatever

2026-01

2026-01-24 2:03PM

• Well, I didn't expect myself to write _this_ much,,, blame the keyboard I think; I don't know why, but I love typing on this kind of keyboard, the basic-b1tch kind of keyboard (y'know, not the Gamer kind, but the basic Office kind with no extra buttons, other than the Function keys, the Numpad, and the arrows in the right place and not crammed under the Shift-key for some reason
  ye, I seem to have some opinions about keyboards as well; again I don't like the flat ones, even though experience might tell you otherwise, but in this case, you kinda need to feel the keys somehow. In the other case, it doesn't matter as much, so flat is justice. the reason I don't really like flat keyboards, like the ones on laptops nowadays, is because I type without looking at the keyboard, I blindly navigate the hand around the keyboard and have managed to type pretty much everything without even looking at it. How do you do such a thing? tbh it's pretty easy, all you have to do is learn the layouts. For example, I'm most familiar with the basic QWERTY one, even though it may not be fast to type in it or whatever, you might prefer otherwise, but it's this layout that I've seen used _everywhere_, so I kinda had to get used to it. There's also some line on the F and J keys, I use these to know where my hand is, because I kinda know the keys around them. As for how I know where the keys are, I don't know how I do it, honestly ;w; I've typed for so long that I kinda know where they are,,, With other layouts I'd struggle to find the keys, so yea, I don't know I'm sorry ;w;
• I also seem to do well with the mobile phone keyboard, but again it has the same layout I already got used to. Before that you had numbers with a few letters each, and you had to press the button a number of times before you got the letter you wanted. I know there was a way to press the button one time and it'd auto-complete to the word you wanted, but I never used that thing
• Some keys I almost never use do require me to look at the keyboard, but it's also the keys that are almost always in different places (the QWERTY ones seem to always have the same place, but I can't say the same about Page Up/Dn, Ins/Del, Home/End, and also PrntScr, ScrLock, Pause&Break. These are normally in a square, but sometimes the 3 keys at top are above an empty space, or they are right above the arrow keys, and above the square there's 3 extra keys. Or there might not be a square at all and are just scatered around the Enter key or the right of the Function keys. yea, I've seen many layouts; good thing I can just connect a USB keyboard and avoid all this nonsense, but I wish I could just remove the keyboard altogether because it only confuses me,,, anyway). There's also the placement of the extra Fn key in laptops that is either to the right of the Ctrl key on left, or (worse) to the left of it, so you hit it by mistake. Thankfully my Fn key is on the right of Ctrl, but still; anyway, yea, I don't really use this keyboard, so it doesn't matter much. And also, for some reason, the power button looks just like another key on the keyboard; and because of that, if you press it with the laptop ON, it doesn't turn OFF instantly (that's good) ; but when you turn ON the laptop, it requires you to press it for a second or so. Anyway, it's on the top-right of the keyboard, right above Numpad- and on the right of Page Up/Dn or Home/End or whatever, I don't know; I don't wanna look at that keyboard and its silly layout. It's also one of those keyboards where you can't press more than 3 keys at once, but it depends which of those 3 keys they are; that can be quite the problem sometimes, but idc I don't use it lol. Don't blame me, this was the best one I could have like a decade ago ;w; can't believe it's been that long,,, CPU with integrated graphics and the weird native 1366px resolution (also only 4GB of RAM, yes, only 4GB), but 1TB storage (I've never seen anything like that before, and that was enough of a reason I got it (the only reason in fact) ). I'm pretty sure nowadays y'all have laptops with 1080p resolutions with much better CPUs and whatnot, but back then I had this big ol' laptop that worked for what I needed it for. It also came with a DVD player that I only used to install the drivers it came with,,, and then I never used the DVD ever again. I took it out recently and left a hole but now it weights less; I'll have to see if I can do anything with the CD/DVD players I've taken out of computers over the years,,, Maybe there's nothing to do with them anymore and no one needs them, but you never know; and of course I don't wanna be the one that gives them away, someone else will have to do it for me I'm sorry. My fears and avoidances cause so much inconvenience, it also annoys me but what can I do ;w;
• Other than that, sometimes I wish I had the kind of keyboard with many additional buttons to open things or pause the music for example, but they're either not USB (I don't have bluetooth on this thing, somehow, and I don't really trust the wireless kind of keyboard and mouse) or they're a bit too noisy. That's another thing; for some reason, many keyboards are artificially(?) noisy I think, I don't know, but they do sound different; even mine is _kinda_ noisy, but there's others worse than this. If I were to talk while typing, at least you'd be able to hear me; can't say the same about the others I 'heard' of. Oh and also, even if they do have the additional buttons, they'd be missing the numpad or Function keys, or have the other keys jumbled around; I prefer to have every possible key on the keyboard, including the numpad that I remap sometimes (it's quite useful)
• well then, that's about it for now. I hope I can share what other projects I have in mind, maybe some of you know already, but I've not made much progress creatively, it seems I'm still learning ;w;
  And of course, everything I do is all over the place, I don't even know where to put it and where to share it,,, it's music, I wanna make some music using something called 'tracker' that uses NES instruments or something, I don't know; basically chiptune, y'know, but not using a full suite or plugins or whatever the pros are using,,, I don't have the knowledge in anything like that, I just wanna do some simple things based on whatever my mind makes up ;w;

2026-01-24 1:18PM

• I think I added the missing entries for this year, because for some reason I forgot to publish them
• Other than that, I'm not even sure what to talk about ;w; I don't seem to be feeling well recently (mentally and physically), and I've tried looking through my backlog on the laptop I recently reinstalled. I used to have a webpage in which I wrote many game names, and I picked whatever I thought was interesting. There's also another webpage that contained my thoughts for why I included them on the webpage, but it's quite unfinished and I never went back to add more thoughts it I think
  Now that I actually played some of them, as opposed to just looking at some screenshots and/or a bit of videos, I may be able to make some webpage to contain my thoughts again, but this time about what I was able to play from them. may is a good key-word, I don't know if I'll be able to do it, but whatever. where I first heard of the games is all over the place; some are from my previous research(es), some are from someone's library back when I still had access to it (I still think about you sometimes, I miss ya ;w; ), and some were from my wishlist. I'll just include this info alongside my thoughts, that'd be better
  why did I look through my backlog? I kinda had to do it someday ;w; besides, I seem to have stopped adding games to it, in part because games nowadays suxxxx v badly; for example are multiplayer-only, have anti-cheat, contain DRM that leads to massive filesizes and increased system requirements (but also because I can't just look at the game lists and pick things anymore, I don't have the time ;w; ). and I wanted to play the games _someday_ anyway. I know I mentioned not to expect anything more from me, but you never know, maybe someday, maybe not. spoiler is, from many of the games I had listed, I didn't actually like some,,, even though at the time I thought I would, and for many of them I got stuck in the first stage and couldn't progress, so that's nice. I planned to stream me playing the games, but the idea kinda fell off after a few games that I could not progress into no matter what, and being stuck in the same stages for hours is not fun to see, so I'll just do these offline. As much as I would've liked for my playthroughs to be available online in some way, I can't do it I'm sorry ;w; I could try to record and upload them as-is, see how that goes, until then we'll see. (I kinda wanted to stream so I could receive some help for how to do the levels, but no one seems to help, let alone talk to me anymore, so what can I do ;w; I don't think I have any problem with anyone, idk what happened and no one tells me anything. ig it's the holidays and the first month of the New Year not being so good; either-way, not much I can do if I'm not told anything. just tell me and don't let me figure it out because I won't, I hate when peeps don't tell you straight what the problem is, and they try to hide it behind so many layers like an onion. At that point, whatever you wanted to tell me is hidden so deep that I would use all the brain-power to figure out what the other things even mean; and even then I won't figure out anything. And, yea, I know I do the same exact thing I'm talking about, but did you know you can just ask me about it? wow! ikr!? I can't talk about everything about everything _here_, but if you ask me I may be able to tell, I don't know)
  I also didn't feel like speaking at all last month, at least not in a microphone. I think my sad voice would give it away instantly, so I won't try ;w; I may have to speak in the microphone for _something_ at least, but that's gonna have to wait until I have enough footage and a plan for what I wanna do, and sadly it's not how the telepoles are connected in that one game I was thinking about; that one required way too much focus, the idea I have is basically exploration for some places that you rarely visit or think about. like for example, you always seem to pass by some building or something, but have you looked around it? Sometimes there's nothing at all, other times there may be something.
  I don't know, I've seen others do this too, but they only did a few places that are obvious or they skip the ones I had in mind. If no one else does it, I might as well do it myself, y'know
• as always, if there's anything specific that you're interested in hearing from me, please let me know. I'll get around making that webpage to contact me at, so I can just link to it and you'll see what to do
• `ks` has been trying to keep me around for as long as they can, but don't seem to have shown up recently; I do wonder what happened to them and I'm a bit worried. They maybe won't reveal to me what is it, but I hope it gets better. many times they can get very vocal about the things they are looking into, the fact they kept silent is what makes me quite worried ;w; but they tell me not to worry too much about it, so I won't. well then, I hope we may see `ks` again when I discuss the games and other things. oh right, I wanted to watch some anime too; previously I didn't know what to watch, but I remember I have a big ol' list I can check, so I'll have to find it again somehow. Anyway, another webpage for the TODO list ;w;

(2026-01-24 8:41AM)

• the only thing that needs to be done with the VM setup thing is some formatting, and after that I'll see where to put it
• I can't remember if anything happened recently, other than the inability to do much because of my worries
• anything else, I'm not sure I feel like doing anything at all anymore ;w; it might be depression again, I don't know. I'll try to sort through my mind and make a ToDo list anyway; even though I may not be able to ever complete it, there could be some things I may be able to do (and some others might be impossible with the current situations, I hate it I hate it I hate it, none of that nonsense should've ever happened, I can't do anything about it)
• bit of a downer 'conclusion' paragraph to this one, but yeah, I don't feel like updating anymore,,, I'll try to keep up my websites for as long as I can, but don't expect much more from me. In one of these previous webpages, there's some hidden links that you can't easily access (they're not available if you normally browse the webpage, you have to dig through 'somehow', you'll figure it out. If not, think about what I use to write them, and that might already be too much of a hint, oh well), but at the moment I don't think they're useful for anyone other than myself, so,,,
• I'm sorry, I wish I could do better, I wish I could do more. not having recently received any kind of support for what I do here, doesn't help my motivation; it also doesn't help I've not made it easy to contact me, but I digress. I'll try to do something about that, I wanted to look into being able to receive messages, but I've still not done it yet because worries and whatnot. I also need to see how to receive support with monii, because I kinda need to eat sometimes (and maybe eat more; two (incomplete) meals a day maybe is not healthy)
• And before I go, if any of you wanna archive my webpages (all of them?), ask me, please, don't request every webpage with whatever bot you have; just tell me and I'll zip up the websites for you, it is pretty easy to do because it's all HTML files, some text and some images. Some links are 'external' but point to my website still, just search-and-replace some things, you'll figure it out; I know you guys know your way around `regex` and these things better than I would ^^
• I may still be writing webpages, but I won't write an entry here for all of them, unlike how I used to do it. I could basically add many webpages without saying anything about it
  or maybe not, we'll see

(2026-01-16 3:48AM)

• future is already looking bad with all the stupid nonsense that is happening, and I don't like it one bit
• Anyway, currently I'm trying to write some kind of a guide for how I set up a Windows VM and what I use for it, but there's quite a lot of things to do, which is why it's taking me quite a bit to do (not to mention worries that are clouding my mind, and some other things, but I won't go into it here, I'm already sad enough and the music I'm listening to doesn't seem to help)
• Other than that, it does seem like I just left most things behind; the thing is I can't think of anything more to add to this or anything really, what should I even do anymore ;w; (the place to ask me questions or message me is one of the things I should do at least,,, and well, there's some other things I can think of too, but there's some setup involved and I don't know if I can do all that with the limited amount of time I have; that's another problem
• I _could_ make a TODO list or whatever, but I'll add so many things to it that I'll end up never looking at it ever again, so,,, but I could still try to do it either-way. Someone does it through soundbites, I'll just write it somewhere and have it. Now I gotta think if I wanna do it on paper, or where do I even store it on? On paper would be the easiest, I don't wanna think what should go where
• On the surface it looks like I've not done much or anything at all, but since a few weeks (or months?) ago, some depression hit me and I've not been able to easily recover, but I'm trying. I still don't have a way to support me, and I gotta find some ways even though I don't like dealing with this kind of things
• we'll see; until then, idk what to look forward from me on this year,,, Maybe I'll do something, maybe I won't do much (or maybe I won't do anything at all? or at least won't do anything significant), I don't know yet; but I hope we can get through it well ^^

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